50 Shades, yes...that is correct...my opinion only matters to me..

 Yes, I read the books, yes I've seen the movie. Yes, I liked the books, no, I did not like the movie..well...
As a 40 ish ish female you would think I would get into the whole 50 shades sex and romance..oh wait. forgot. Mr. Grey does not do romance...ok the whole sex thing but honestly the books that are not on my kindle do not even have creased bindings. Read them once and put them away then moved on.
 Some of my co workers have copies of the books that are literally thread bare..I'm going to give you my perception of the books and movie you can always click the button on the top of this page and poof...I disappear....
 I read the books in order in 3 days, yes I know couldn't put it down and being a speed reader made it all go by quickly. What I liked about the books is the actual story, although If I would have read the last chapter first in the third book Meet Christian Grey  I would have NOT read any further.
 I don't like ass holes. I wanted to punch him in his face and then kick him some more but its fiction it's not real as I had to remind myself.
 Getting back to topic a hem.. I did like the actual story , If you strip away all the bondage and red room of pain stuff and look at the actual relationship between Anna and Christian it becomes a fairytale . Rich guy poor girl and a virgin no doubt.. I'm laughing ..in these times that is a fairytale but that's another post. Off topic yet again.. What I did like about Christian is that he gave Anna what most women want and that is to be cherished he really did care about her and the little details that the movie left out, like when Anna used his toothbrush and wore his underwear home the first night they spent together those little tidbits that could have made the movie more lighthearted. and what of the Music from the books?
 Ah... Music.To be honest that's the one thing I couldn't wait for when I heard they were making a movie. Where was all that beautiful music that I could identify with? The threads of words and melody mixed together to set the emotional part of the book and movie. I identify music with emotion ..again another post..
I heard the faint sounds of Bachianas Brasilerias No.5 when Anna first came to the apartment.. They did put in a little Chopin, and somewhat of Thomas Tallis Spem in Alium of what sounded to be some kind of rendition. Let me be the first to say I'm not a musician, I'm not a writer either as you can probably guess from my misguided grammar..I am a lover of music and the written word. The music set the stage for the story with me. I was disappointed.
 I watching the movie while drinking my morning coffee sitting in my massage chair thought I would multi task  not a good idea..I was wearing coffee and then the dog is trying to jump on me because he wanted to lick it up..gross..pause..change clothes....back to movie.This time with a bowl of yogurt and granola. This was also a bad mistake as I got the part where Anna tells Christian it was nice knowing him and he shows up in her bedroom with a glass of wine and ice..I stopped chewing, spoon in midair  then preceded to choke on my food because I forgot to breathe...pause..change clothes....rewind..replay...then preceded to get some ice water and take deep breaths......
 When the movie was over I turned it off and sat quietly looking at the window thinking about what I just watched. Meh....ok..sex, sex and more sex, I'm sure acting out all of that is not what we see I'm sure its very hard to do that esp being naked for over half the movie..So what does it all mean? I can analyze it all I want it wont make sense to me but in a world where sex sells and reality tv is sex, I'm wondering if people watching this stuff really relate to this or is it just fantasy? Does the younger generation think this is real life? It makes me sad..very sad...
 Sexuality isn't about getting down and dirty, to me anyway...it's not hunky guys or sexy girls for that matter poised in swimsuits or nothing at all. There is a deep connection about being sexual than looks. Call me old fashioned..I think I just look at the emotional side..I've ALWAYS have felt this way even when I was younger, but found it difficult to explain. I see things different than most people.
 I liked the way Christian looked at Anna and when he touched her face. Ive been down the marriage isle 2x and no one has ever done that to me, maybe I am just a romantic..Well my first husband did light candles one night and almost burned the house down luckily I did have a fire extinguisher, that was a real mood killer...
 Sexuality is a touch, a word spoken, a glance, the way someone sips their wine, or walks into a room. the way they sit or greet people, kindness is sexy to me.Messy hair, windblown and a slight hint of a tan, the way skin looks in the sun and the crease around their eyes when they smile or look you in the eye. Simple gestures, no matter what they look like or who they are. It's human nature to ..crap I cant think of the word I want...um...gravitate that's it!....people seem to gravitate toward the pretty ones oh their sexy because they are good looking, face isn't cute but what a body..or vice versa, We are human we all have traits, we all feel, we all love, dream, hope, so forth and so on..we are not products of airbrushed perfection from magazines we are not human barbies and ken dolls. Looks fade, waistlines grow, wrinkles do appear. Off subject again...the bottom line ..I really don't have one. Just my thoughts on ...crap I hit the spell checker and will be working on this post for a while , glad it doesn't have the grammar built into it.....looking out the window..oh a large boat is in my front yard mmmmmmm makes me think of being on the water around sunset, being a little sunburned and the wind in my hair gliding across the water that looks like glass......shit..off subject  yet again....